Can He Catch Me?

Sometimes I am more honest than other times–like this time. I will admit that sometimes I am scared. Sometimes I’m scared of what tomorrow brings. Sometimes I’m one of those, “what if…” girls. Sometimes I am scared of the outcome of moving my heart another inch. I’ve got it closely tied to my chest and I don’t want to budge.

The question on my heart today is, if I move out in faith, will God catch me?

But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you? O you of little faith? — Matthew 6:30

I feel like I’m walking on a tight-rope, where there are few things keeping my feet from slipping and my heart from following suit. I feel like a fragile porcalin doll that sits on the top shelf of a young girls nursery.

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil; for Thou art with me; Thy rod and Thy staff, they comfort me. — Psalm 23:4

I don’t know if the winds that are blowing past are gentle enough to keep me standing. So if I fall, will He catch me? What will it look like, and how will it feel?

“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. –Jeremiah 29:11

Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. — Philippians 4:7

I don’t mean to hold on with my own Strength, because I’ve heard time and time again that it will do me no good. I’ve been told, and I’ve felt that truth resonate within me. But do I believe it to be true? Am I willing to let go and allow that to become my own testimony?

Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. — Proverbs 3:5

He is telling me to let go. Let go, Julia. Let go, lovely one. But what do I grab on to? Where do I turn when things start spinning? What if I wake up tomorrow morning and I feel like I am back at square one?

I Will lift up my eyes to the mountains; From whence shall my help come? My help [comes] from the LORD, Who made heaven and earth. — Psalm 121:1-2

What if I loose everything?

Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on Earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal, but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. — Matthew 6:19-22

So can He catch me? Of course he can.

Be still and know that I am God. — Psalm 26:10

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